The weight on the scale can be so hard to see. Although at times we can also get on the scale purposefully to punish ourselves by looking at that number that is reflected back to us.
It doesn’t tell us our self-worth, whether we’re doing a good job in life or not, whether we are kind, or if we’ve stuck to our eating or plan or not – it doesn’t tell us any of that. All it tells us is our gravitational pull in relation to the earth.
We don’t really know how our weight is impacted by hormones, sleep, and so many other things that come into play. What we tend to do is scratch all of that, look at the number on the scale and feel worthy or not worthy depending on what that number is. It can impact our whole day’s actions purely because of the number on the scale.
Sometimes we look at that number in order to punish ourselves. It’s almost in a way to convince ourselves to not do something we “shouldn’t” do or not eat what we shouldn’t eat. We then carry that punishment with us the whole day and that sometimes means that we can be snappy, defensive, sassy – all because of that number on the scale. It’s internalized judgment that actually becomes externalized judgment onto the world around us too. You might see someone eating something and really enjoying it, and you can end up feeling frustrated by them for eating it or judge them for how quickly they are eating their meal.
Ultimately it’s got nothing to do with you, but because of the way you talk to yourself and the number you saw on your scale, you start to ask all of these questions about other people when it’s actually directed towards yourself.
Have a think about how getting on that scale every morning is actually helpful to you. Deep down there’s a part of you that thinks that it’s working. Think twice about it. Is it really serving you? You don’t need to make a change – it’s not what is expected of you – but it might be helpful to think about whether it serves you right now or not.
